Since this month is about boosting energy I should say that after I worked out on Monday I felt great the whole day, stayed up late, slept through the night and woke up refreshed. On Tuesday I did jack (mostly because I was sore and if I know myself I don't like making things so hard that I fail... like the excuses already????? LAME)... and feel like crap around 6:30 and feel as if I could sleep from now until 6a. I am fighting with myself right now as I type. But Dexter looks so comfy to cuddle up next to. Maybe I will for just a few minutes. Anyone want to take bets on if I get up? (I didn't by the way... super). I don't want to be part of the millions of Americans who are pathetic enough that they can't even live up to their own expectations for themselves.
The worst part is knowing that I KNOW HOW TO GIVE MYSELF ENERGY AND FEEL BETTER AND I REFUSE TO DO IT. What the hell? I love being lazy. That's the problem. I love curling up on the couch on a crappy weather day with the pups and watching mindless tv for hours. But it doesn't make me feel any better after. It drains me, completely.
I said I would bounce around - one of my things to try to get rid of is my fear. If I am successful at losing weight I KNOW I will have excess skin and I am not sure what to do about that. Surgery? Is that costly? Dangerous? Sorry, now I am wandering.
I am putting together a Happiness Project physical journal/binder that I can keep with me when I need/want it. Should be interesting.
This is great Steph!! Keep it up. You CAN do it. One step at a time. As for down the road worries you have? Wait to cross that bridge. Put all your energy and effort into the now which is to improve habits for your happier outcome!
ReplyDeleteHey Kiddo..this is a great idea, wonder if I could even keep up with this! Hang in there, I'm with you.
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