Using hatred

I know we aren't supposed to hate people. It's an extremely useless emotion. I have had things that have occurred in my past that have made me, for lack of a better word, hate certain individuals. Again, I know I shouldn't. It's something I am working on in September. Hmmm maybe I should move that up... 

Most of the time I do perfectly fine without thinking about these people but there are moments when I become furiously angry about things they did to me or said about me. Lies. Hypocrisy. Greed. Jealousy. Overall nastiness. Trying to pretend they did nothing and that they are above the situations. Among other things. I am who I am. Take it or leave it. I've never hated someone for disliking me or making fun of me but when my character gets attacked, it's over. It's very hard for me to turn back from that.

Granted, it hasn't happened often and I can count on less than both hands the number of people this applies to but I am going to attempt to use my hatred/anger of these people to fuel my desire to improve physically and mentally. I tried it out today and it worked like a charm. I've never thought about doing this before. I hope this doesn't make me dwell on it more than I should/normally do.


Maybe in the end, it will dull my hatred for these people and turn it into pity? I don't know. I already pity them for being who they are but I still am angry. I need the anger to go away. September is going to be a tough month. I've held onto some of this for years. It's time to let go but first this in an attempt to let go.